Consistently Inconsistent

I'm gearing up for a long night. It's time to "Ferberize" this baby. Tonight I am committed to begin the process of eliminating the middle of the night feeding. I am tired, I am cranky, and I need my uninterrupted sleep. Oh, sweet Baby Beck, you will be angry. You will cry and you will scream. But soon you will learn to stay asleep all night and you will love it.

Honestly I am not sure why this has been so difficult. I am starting to believe that you will be the stubborn one. You will be one who is relentless and strong-willed. You are an aeries, after all. I swear you have not had a consistent sleep pattern for more than 3 days at a time. One night you will sleep all the way through until morning, the next you are up ever other hour. There is no possible way you are hungry, could it be that you just wake up and feel a little bored an think, "hmm...I wonder how long it will take beforeI can get her to come in here?".

And so it begins. Tonight I will check on you when you wake, but I will not give in. I will not nurse you just because it is easier and I want to go back to bed. I will time myself before going back in and I will more than likely shed a few tears of my own. It's for your own good. In more ways than one.

Growing Pains

Dear Baby Beck,
Please let this last week of terrible sleep just be a little case of growing pains. Mama is tired. Very tired. Sleep is good. You will like it. I promise. Come on, give it a try tonight. Please.
Thank you,
Your very tired and cranky mama

Remember how nice this feels?

Baby Beck is 6 months old!

A half a year old already! Before I know it you'll be walking, talking, and cutting teeth. You are becoming increasingly difficult to photograph as you are like a little roly poly. You babble and giggle and can take hold of my hair like a strong man. You've been eating solids for a month now and we have worked our way up from rice cereal to sweet potatoes, carrots, and now butternut squash. It seems that carrots are your favorite, which is just fine by me as they are among the easiest to make.
As amazingly perfect as you are, I still can't seem to get you to shake your anywhere from 1:30-3:45 am feeding. Seriously, it needs to stop. Granted, you go to bed around 5:45 these days, but is it really necessary to wake up for a snack? Let's hope this doesn't go on much longer.
This month we've dealt with your first cold, numerous self-inflicted face scratches (cutting your nails is no small feat), and even a few knocks to the ground when Anderson decides he's finished holding you. You are a tough little cookie and you are doing a pretty good job holding your own around here. You love to bounce, blow bubbles and shake your toys. You adore your big brother. You make us happy. We love you so.